(not) in the mood for love

lately, I've been thinking about a relevance of youngster's relationship and family's bond. just like my mom said, actually there's no bond within youngster's relationship. i didn't believe my mom, but lately, i realize that my mom was right. having a youngster's relationship is like having a puppy love, it's not true love which is your mom and your dad have (mostly, yeah, divorce doesn't mean a true love too). having a youngster's relationship doesn't mean you can ask your boy/girlfriend something, like stay for a little bit longer since you've missed him/her so much. you can't also ask him/her to come to your house every day or hang out as often as you want. your boy/girlfriend isn't yours uttermost. it's all because you still have that family's bond, since your mom has brought you the world, your dad has paid all your school's tuition, your sister has helped you to work on your homework, your brother has taught you to play football. you have a responsibility to take care of them because they has took care of you (and will always do for the rest of the time). you have to make them happy in every single way possible because they has made you happy in every single way. well, your boy/girlfriend has made you happy too, but you don't have to make them happy since it happens in a limited time, but within your family, it happens for the rest of your life (read: unlimited time).

how about marriage? it starts from youngster's relationship, but i still don't get it why people can do marriage if you still have the family's bond. i don't believe in marriage. i still want to be married, but i'm not sure whether it's going to make me happy or terrible. since the point of marriage is two different persons (from two different family's bonds) mend up to make a new family. but how about the bond? the bond will only come if you have some kids, since they are your creation (well, God makes humans, but to make a human, spouses have to "mend up" right?). how if you don't get any kid? is the bond ever exist? since you and your wife/husband have came from different family's bond (and you still have responsibility to your family for the rest of your life), why you waste your time to someone else which is your wife/husband, and get a responsibility for him/her too?

that's why i don't believe in marriage. i don't believe that someday a man would waste his life for me besides the responsibility he has for his family. i believe that family's bond so much tighter than your feeling to your boy/girlfriend, so why waste your time for loving someone when you know you don't have much time to take care of him/her? i believe marriage is only for people who feel that they can organize the time too well between their family and their new family. but, still, someone has to be sacrificed. will come the time when the two family have two different things and you have the responsibility to interfere the two things, and you have to choose. whether it's your family or your new family you choose, someone still has to be sacrificed. and i don't wanna be the one who will be sacrificed. quite selfish it is, but when you say you love someone, love him/her at all cost, don't let him/her behind.

i don't believe that someday a man will never sacrificed me or love me at all cost, since i believe the family's bond so much tighter than the feeling to your love, whether it's me or anyone else.

quote of the day and NY!

i found this inspiring quote in magazine.


" to think is easy. to act is hard. but the hardest part in the world is to act in accordance with your thinks. "


and since now, New York will be my future hometown (i found the NY's article in an old magazine too). Go NY!

quotes of the day

sorrow is easy to express, but hard to tell

so true! since i get an I score for civil law, i'm so depressed. my boyfriend said that my face has turned into such an ugly face. it wasn't help me tho. i couldn't tell anyone that my score's I, but after i tell my friends (in list order: Andira, Dyan, Fhadilah, Mir'atul, and Navy), i feel so much relieve. yeah, it's true that sorrow is easy to express, but hard to tell. My add, if you do the hard part, you'll feel so much relieve, just like me.

i love you all my friend, for simplifying my life (and so do you Fadhil :* )

sentimental in brief

hellow!

quick posting here. since i've been alone in my rent-room (well, my roommate is staying in her home again), i spent much time to do some contemplative thinking.
i used to be a person who really wanna free, from my talkative family, but now, i just miss them badly :(
i miss the time we spend together, i miss the time when I tell my mom a story after i back from school.
i also miss the time when we pray Magrib together. i miss when we watch movie together and make jokes from it.
i thought that i'm not a family-man, but i am.

in this kind of time, i also miss my boy. i miss the time and things we share together. well, if you read this, i miss you more than ever muhammad fadhil parmato irsyal.


briefly, i just miss my family, my boy, my roommate. just wish me luck to get through all of this kind of mess.

cheers, bye
the bee

welcoming new month!

hey all.

it's already February now, and it means i have to go to depok again *sigh*, and it also means that my life backs to normal (read:reality) again. well, the good news is BLS (Business Law Society) which is one of organization in my faculty, is re-open recruitment, yippie! there are so many open recruitment, but, since i am not a concrete person, i guess, i try my best to alter my attitude *sigh*

it's time to off, and bye!

cheers,
the bee

p.s: i wanna share my law lecture in few days, so keep reading my blog okay?

new hair-cut

hey all!



i've just cut my hair by myself, hahaha. and the result isn't too bad, unless some people said it's quite quirky hair style. well, since i wear hijab (jilbab or kerudung in indonesian), i can't show you my masterpiece. and if you really curious about mine, these are clues how do i looklike in my new hair-cut.



1. the bangs is looklike angel's bangs in angel's diary series





2. the rest is looklike nirina zubir's hair (do you remember her hair when she was a newcomer at MTV Indonesia? the quirky one)
* ups, i didn't find the right photos, so sorry



3. since i have a round face, can you imagine how quirky it is??



hahaha, cheers

the bee

being a quantum reader

hey all! bee's speaking.

huff, finally i had finished read a book entitled Quantum Reader, and i wanna share the points of the book. well, before you read the tips below, being a quantum reader means you can maximize your reading skill with your own (read: human being) potential, you can get all of the knowledge from the book in a little time. it's a way to save your time too. just look at the tips below.

first of all, you have to know the reason why you'll read a book, is it for school (read: assignment or for exam) or just for fun. then, you have to find your personal reason why you have to be a quantum reader. to have much more time to play is an example of personal reason. being a quantum reader=a little time to read=much things to get=much more time to play.

second, you must create a good condition for reading. feeling relaxed and enjoyed are the signs when you're going to the theta condition of brain which is the good condition to read. the theta condition means your brain focuses on single activity, full-concentrated, yet relaxed. there are some steps to enter the theta condition.

• put your feet on the ground
• sit still
• close your eyes and create the condition you want, keep it for several minutes
• open your eyes and start reading

third, try to enhance your reading skill by practicing your eyes and hands. for eyes, try to read a group of words at a glance, not word by word. you can also try the soft-focused by seeing the space between lines not the words. for hands, try to point the words by your finger.

last, do examine the cover, the content, and else. it's called super-scan. and also, try to turn the page by your left hand, in order to keep your concentration still.

then, all you have to do is start READING!

you can also take notes, but it's another skill that i'm going to talk about later.

it's important to remember that practice makes perfect, you're never be a quantum reader at a glance. so, try the steps above before you start reading, okay??

cheers, and good luck!

the bee

p.s : for the details, just read the book, Quantum Reader, by Bobbi DePorter. I read the Indonesian version.